Drift Again

(Yeah...)

It’s been cold for a minute now...

Still breathing though...

Used to stare at the ceiling, now I’m chasing the stars

Made it out of the pain, but I still wear the scars

I got love for my brothers, even when we grew apart

Lost some people on the way, had to patch up my heart

Fake love, I was drowning in it

Kept receipts from the hate, now I’m counting with it

Had nights I ain’t eat, now the table’s all linen

But the silence too loud when the room start spinning

I’ve been running from myself, tryna feel something real

But the closer I get, the more distant it feels

Now it’s flights to Japan, but I’m numb in the clouds

Told the pain, “You can’t hurt me,” but it still comes around

Had to smile through the loss, had to bleed for the win

Had to lie to myself just to try to fit in

If I vanish tonight, just remember the name

I ain’t chasing no fame — I was born from the flame

Used to write on the bus, now the seats all leather

Still the same soul, just a little more weathered

They don’t see what it cost, they just measure the cheddar But my heart stayed cold, even under the pressureI been ghostin’ for peace, not to flex or to stunt

Ain’t no blueprint to heal when the damage is blunt

I could buy out the store, but I’m broke in the mind

Tryna borrow some light from a darker time

I’ve been running from myself, tryna feel something real But the closer I get, the more distant it feels Now it’s nights in the hills, but I dream of the past Where the world moved slow and the love used to last Told my mom that I’m fine, but she knows when I lie Told my bro, “We gon’ make it,” with tears in my eyes If I fade out tonight, let the message remain: Even diamonds get lost in the waves of the rain

I been sittin' in the dark with my phone on mute

Scrollin' through the past like it’s all still true

Got texts I won’t open, names I won’t say

And a version of me I just can’t replay

No sleep, just thoughts I can’t outrun

Told myself it’s over, but it’s never done

If I break, would they notice? Or would I stay fake?

Smile on my face, but the silence still aches

Yeah...

Still got my name

Still got my soul

But sometimes I wonder if I lost control

I came from the dark

Still chasing the light

(I don’t know who I am)