SHADOWS THAT CALL MY NAME

I wake up feeling like I never slept,

Just drifted through another night of hell.

These thoughts keep clawing at the back of my skull,

Like they’re begging me to slip, begging me to fell.

I try to breathe, but the air won’t stay,

It trembles like I do, then fades away.

Every heartbeat feels like a warning sign—

Like I’m running out of time, running out of time…

I’m scared of what I think when I’m alone,

Scared of the places my mind goes.

Every failure echoes louder,

And the dread… it never slows.

There’s a darkness in my chest

That whispers I’m to blame—

And the shadows start to gather,

Calling out my name.

I’m fighting for a breath

In a world that feels so cold…

Trying not to let the weight of me

Pull me through the floor.

I’m tired of pretending that I’m fine,

When I’m sinking like a stone inside my mind.

Pressure building up like a bomb in my chest,

Every thought a trigger I’m trying to suppress.

People tell me “hold on,” like I ain’t been trying—

Like I don’t stay awake to keep myself from dying.

I’m running from a war that nobody sees,

’Cause the battlefield is buried

Six feet deep in me.

I’m not okay—

But I’m still here.

Fighting back the voice that whispers: disappear.

These scars inside, they never fade—

But I’m still breathing through the blade.

There’s a darkness in my chest

That whispers I’m to blame—

And the shadows start to gather,

Calling out my name.

I’m fighting for a breath

In a world that feels so cold…

Trying not to let the weight of me

Pull me through the floor.

If I break, if I fall—

Will anyone notice at all?

Or will I fade, quietly—

Into the place that’s swallowing me?

I’m trying just to stay awake,

To keep the fear from taking shape.

And though the shadows call my name—

I’m begging them…

Not today.