Dead inside

Yeah… yeah…. Exile

Smiles can lie

Scars don’t show on the outside

But I feel ‘em every night

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I wake up, put the mask on, play pretend

Tell the world I’m fine, but I’m breakin’ again

Got a war in my head that nobody can see

And the battlefield’s bloody, but they say, “Just breathe”

Walkin’ through crowds, but I’m stuck in my thoughts

Everyone’s talkin’, I’m hearin’ it not

They tell me I’m strong, but I’m barely afloat

I laugh at the jokes, but I’m dead in my soul

They say “count your blessings,” I count regrets

Tryna rewrite pain, but it inks every step

My mind’s like a prison, I’m stuck in the cell

Shoutin’ for help but it echoes in hell

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I’m alive on the outside, dead within

Smilin’ wide while I drown in sin

Say I’m fine but I’m losin’ again

Yeah, I’m losin’ again…

Got a heart that beats but it feels so numb

Look alive but the damage done

Can’t run from the place I’ve been

I’m alive on the outside…

Dead within

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Told my friends I’m good, they believed that lie

But the truth is buried, six feet high

I got dreams, yeah, but they rot like weeds

Hope fades fast when the soul can’t breathe

Tryna light my path with a broken flame

Feelin’ like I’m cursed, stuck in shame

Love don’t fix what’s cracked inside

And time don’t heal what I try to hide

I sip on pain like it’s medicine

Talk to the sky but it don’t let me in

Voices in my head, man, they all sound real

Tell me I’ll break before I ever heal

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I’m alive on the outside, dead within

Smilin’ wide while I drown in sin

Say I’m fine but I’m losin’ again

Yeah, I’m losin’ again…

Got a heart that beats but it feels so numb

Look alive but the damage done

Can’t run from the place I’ve been

I’m alive on the outside…

Dead within

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They see me smile, but they don’t see the war

They see the light, but they don’t feel the storm

I’m scream-silent in a crowded room

Alive, but this feels like a tomb

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Alive on the outside, dead within

Prayin’ for peace that’ll never begin

Try to fly but I got no wings

No halo, just haunted sins

I’m alive on the outside…

But I’m dead, dead within…

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