Am I really that bad

I'm disappointed in myself 
I can't even make 
What's for my sake
Wtf do  I need to make

So I can for my sake
Break this online streek
I don't want to hack 
Or make wethers attack 
With my power
 heaven will go lower
Just to make my wish True 
And my wish is to stay with you
I'm also pissed 
We missed chances
To make contacts
Or I was slow with my glow
Not understanded
I'm Grounded,
It's not first time I'm not 
Understanded 

Noubodey is guilty  (noubodey noubodey)

It seems I'm branded 
Simply not understanded
If we were closer 
You would understand 
My mind is working 
On Making future 
Not breaking,I'm helping 
Not talking 
I was taker before
But now I'm bringer 
Seeker of truth 
My Truth 
Because lays  
make despise 
I don't want to lie
It's my life and I will die
After death,who knows 
What grows , what last s 
In this wast space 
Mybe grace 
Mybe dark
But it's me and my spark 
I'm accepting every truth 
About my Making 
I'm not hiding 
I'm just seeking 
What I want 
And I want Love 



I'm disappointed in myself 
I can't even make 
What's for my sake
Wtf do  I need to make

rap, hip hop, ambient, solos, piano, violin , fingerpicking acustic Guitar, eco, reverb