Chains of the Flesh

Should I quit, and give into the quick sand / sometimes , sometime I feel like I can’t stand / paraplegic to the people around me , and everything else that I am / lost in the sauce with my purpose, I forgot what I was chasing,was I chasing my own tail, chilling in my complacency’s / not practicing what I been preaching , flapping my gums with empty words till it bleed / for I have bled for nothing as it seems unlike the one who did for me / am I surrounded to the son of man , or given into the enemy / is this cross and cup for you or me ,quadruple guessing this whole existence with panic attacks and anxieties/

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I hear You calling through the noise

But I’ve been drowning in my voice

Running circles in my head

Fighting truths I never said

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Pull me out the pit, I’m buried alive

Hands to the sky but I’m dead inside

If You’re still there, don’t pass me by

I don’t need comfort—I need You to fight

Break every chain that I built in pride

Strip every lie that I hide behind

If I gotta bleed just to come back to life—

Let me die to myself tonight

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It’s so cozy inside the prison that I built / somewhere in between the void inside my mind and a life well fulfilled / blood drips in the garden of Gethsemane, while I’m crying over spilled milk / am I the thief on the right or the one on the left, leap faith at the moment or wait till I’m near death / heavy choices with no grace from one’s own heart of a man who enjoys his own mess / is it all in my head, the narrative of stress / or lies that I’m feeding myself just to cope and suppress / stuck in a loop, same sin, same regret / say I want freedom but cling to the weight on my chest / fighting conviction while calling it rest / numb to the truth but I feel it press / if You’re still calling, I gotta confess— I’m not too far gone… I just haven’t said yes /

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I don’t want the mask—I want the scars

Tear down the idol I made in my heart

If this is war, then let it begin—

Kill everything that isn’t Him

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Chains hit the floor, I felt them break

That prison was mine, I walked away

You said “It’s finished,” I believe

Now I walk free with Your breath in me

I still feel pressure, still feel the pull

But I ain’t the man I was before

You broke the cycle, opened the door—

I’m not that prisoner anymore

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You pulled me out the pit, I was buried alive

Now I lift my hands—I’m alive inside

You never left, You stayed by my side

Didn’t give me comfort—You taught me to fight

Broke every chain that I built in pride

Stripped every lie I tried to hide

Yeah, I had to bleed just to come back to life—

Now I die to myself… and I’m finally alive

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Not I, but Christ—now I’m alive

Not I, but Christ—no more disguise