Blood-bath inside my head

It’s a blood bath inside my head
killing everything I am
I keep drowning in the mess I made
same hands pulling me down again
If I don’t change, I’ll fade instead
just a ghost in my own skin
It’s a blood bath inside my head
and I’m the one who let it in

Got a war zone
where my thoughts live
Red paint on the walls
but it’s all in
Every mirror in the house
talks back to me
Saying, “How you gonna heal
when you love to bleed?”
Sleep on a mattress
full of bad dreams
I wake up with my hands
round my own schemes
Keep a mask in the drawer
so the flaws fit
But the holes in the eye slots
still drip

It’s a blood bath inside my head
killing everything I am
I keep drowning in the mess I made
same hands pulling me down again
If I don’t change, I’ll fade instead
just a ghost in my own skin
It’s a blood bath inside my head
and I’m the one who let it in

Every promise that I broke
got a chalk line
Outline of the person
I was last time
Scroll through my sins
like a timeline feed
Every little petty lie
every dark need
I blame the world
while I twist the knife

(Argue with the ceiling
like it ruined my life
But that reflection
won’t move till I do
If I’m pointing at them
then it’s pointing back too)

I can’t wash this off
but I can own it
I can’t kill my past
but I can outgrow it
So I stand in the flood
till the red runs clear
Learn to stitch these cuts
instead of disappear
If I tear this armor
from my chest
Maybe I can lay
my old self to rest

(It’s a blood bath inside my head
killing everything I am
I keep drowning in the mess I made
same hands pulling me down again
If I don’t change, I’ll fade instead
just a ghost in my own skin
It’s a blood bath inside my head
and I’m the one who let it in)

It’s a blood bath inside my head
killing everything I am
I keep drowning in the mess I made
same hands pulling me down again
If I don’t change, I’ll fade instead
just a ghost in my own skin
It’s a blood bath inside my head
and I’m the one who let it in

Rap, ethereal, dark rap, emo rap, sparse vocals, sentimental, distorted adlibs and risers towards chorus