Explanations

A new day shines upon me 
Another chance to change
Another chance to right the things 
I did that caused you pain
Now i never meant to hurt you
You kinda just got in my way
If i had known that you were there
Id have never let you stay
Ive tried so hard to explain myself
All along the way
Ive tried to let you in to see
Why my life plays out this way
I know my words dont cut it
And im sorry you dont see
But understanding all of this
Even took a while for me
So i cant expect youll understand
Or even have my back
So i made sure i was strong enough
To go on with all i lack
Someday perhaps youll see me clear
And maybe want to help
Or at least give some encouragement 
Or perhaps some of yourself
Ive loved you through all kinds of shit
Never doubted why i felt
But i understand your hesitation
After all my lifes been dealt
Now i know that you love me
I can see it in your eyes
And you demonstrate it constantly
With all those times you try
I love you for all of that
Its why i never feel alone
Its why through all the trials
My love for you gets shown
So screw all these silly fools
Who dont understand you and me
Im not living life for them 
Just trying to be the best that i can be

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