Suffocating

Trying to breathe

But I have my hand over my mouth

The knife in my sleeve

Points down the path to slither down south

Living in fear to take a breath of air

No matter the weight that’s shed it’s still there

Crushing my chest to puncture my lungs

Clarity is a stranger speaking in tongues

Every day I spent contemplating

It feels like I’m suffocating

By my own hand I’m struggling to fight this

The root cause of my internal crisis

Break my sanity I struggle to fight this

The root cause of my eternal crisis

Sulk from the pressure that clouds my actions

Tongue tied by my depredation

Setting fire to all of my factions

To attack the heart from desperation

I can’t speak my true intentions

I sabotage my own invention

A carefully designed intervention

To hide the things I won’t mention

Every day I spend contemplating

It feels like I’m suffocating

The grip tightens

As this silent pressure builds

The panic heightens

As all my thoughts begin to spill

From my brain and begin to flood my head

Moments pass regret what I should’ve said

Drowning in my sorrow I can’t breathe

I’m finding my biggest problem is me

Every day I spend contemplating

It feels like I’m suffocating

By my own thoughts I’m struggling to fight this

The root cause of my internal crisis

Break my sanity I struggle to fight this

The root cause of my eternal crisis

Sulk from the pressure that clouds my actions

Tongue tied by my depredation

Setting fire to all of my factions

To attack the heart from desperation

I can’t speak my true intentions

I sabotage my own invention

A carefully designed intervention

To hide the things I won’t mention

I put myself in this coffin

Hoping it would stop them

From killing my light

And controlling my life

I put myself in this coffin

Deprived of oxygen

I kill myself too often

So I put myself in this coffin

Every day I spend contemplating

It feels like I’m suffocating

By my own thoughts I’m struggling to fight this

The root cause of my internal crisis

Break my sanity I struggle to fight this

The root cause of my eternal crisis

Sulk from the pressure that clouds my actions

Tongue tied by my depredation

Setting fire to all of my factions

To attack the heart from desperation

I can’t speak my true intentions

I sabotage my own invention

A carefully designed intervention

To hide the things I won’t mention

Feels like I’m suffocating

(Sulking from my actions)

Feels like I’m suffocating

(Clouding my intentions)

Feels like I’m suffocating

(So I put myself)

Feels like I’m suffocating

(In this coffin)