Conquer my Feelings

Conquer my feelings

Even when I’m bleeding out, eyes to the floor

Conquer my demons

Drag me through the fire till we kick that door

If I fall back, pull me forward

When my heart cracks, say it louder

Conquer my feelings

Till I’m not scared anymore

Black hoodie at noon

Curtains drawn, same room

Swear the clock talks trash

Saying I’ll die soon

Phone screen, cracked hope

Scroll hell, dark jokes

Every dream feels cheap

Till your text cut through that smoke

“You can conquer my feelings”

Typed slow, I froze, kept reading

Like you lit a match

In the corner of my ceiling

I’ve been scared of the mirror

Scared of the past I chose

You said “believe in the path you chose”

Now it feels less closed

Conquer my feelings

Even when I’m bleeding out, eyes to the floor

Conquer my demons

Drag me through the fire till we kick that door

If I fall back, pull me forward

When my heart cracks, say it louder

Conquer my feelings

Till I’m not scared anymore

Laziness feels like chains

Heavy on my veins

Bed like a grave

Where I bury my days

You said, “don’t let laziness stop you”

Voice in my skull, it shocked through

Every “later” I’d stacked

Started to rot through

You told me “Persevere”

Name me like a curse, like armor

I been drowning in a tear

You turned the flood into a mantra

So I lace my boots

Even if my hands still shake

Yeah, I move half-speed

But I move, that’s all it takes

Conquer my feelings

Even when I’m bleeding out, eyes to the floor

Conquer my demons

Drag me through the fire till we kick that door

If I fall back, pull me forward

When my heart cracks, say it louder

Conquer my feelings

Till I’m not scared anymore

If I relapse, if I sink back

Would you still call me strong, still say I’ll make it back?

“Believe in the path… believe in the path…”

I loop your words like a spell

Till the ghosts can’t laugh

(Conquer my feelings,

Con-Conquer my feelings)

(If I fall back, pull me forward

Conquer my feelings)

Conquer my feelings

Even when I’m bleeding out, eyes to the floor

Conquer my demons

Drag me through the fire till we kick that door

If I fall back, pull me forward

When my heart cracks, say it louder

Conquer my feelings

Till I’m not scared anymore