I Messed Up

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Prompt / Lyrics
Yeah yeah yeah yeh
[Intro – 0:00] [sample loops w/ soft guitar]
[Sample – low pitched, looped):
“I just needed… one more chance…”]
[(Ad-lib, whispered)]
Yeah… fuck...
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[Verse 1 – 0:20] [Rap-melodic, laid back tone]
I been runnin’ from myself, dawg,
Mirror talkin’ shit, like "You fell off."
Told my momma I’d stay strong,
Now I’m sittin’ in the dark with my head gone.
Told my girl I’d stay clean,
But I’m fuckin’ up my dreams on the daily.
I hide pain in these jeans,
And I pray no one ever gotta save me.
Keep my hoodie like a mask,
Cold world, and I ain't built to last.
Phone ring, but I let it pass,
I can’t lie — I ain’t ready to ask...
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[Chorus – 1:05] [Sung, emotional]
Didn’t mean to fuck it up (nah),
Didn’t mean to fade away…
I was drownin’ in my head,
Had no words I could say.
Didn’t mean to make you cry,
Didn’t wanna make you wait…
But I broke too many things
That I can’t unbreak.
[Repeat CHORUS once – 1:40] [Backed w/ pitched soul sample harmonies]
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[Verse 2 – 2:10] [Half-spoken, melodic]
I ain't sleep in a week,
Just dreams full of shit I ain’t mean.
I keep fightin’ to breathe,
But peace feel like a foreign thing.
And my past still fuckin’ hauntin’ me,
Flashbacks like movies stuck on me.
I keep tryna rewrite my legacy,
But I scribble more pain accidentally.
Every “sorry” feel rehearsed,
Every win feel like a curse.
All the love I had, I burned,
Now I'm just a lesson you learned.
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[Bridge – 2:45] [Lo-fi instrumental break + humming sample]
[*(soul sample loop: “I just needed you…”)]
[(fingerpicked guitar, faint vocal ad-libs)]
(Ad-lib):
Yeah… I know I fucked it all up...
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[Chorus – 3:10] [Reprise, softer tone]
Didn’t mean to fuck it up,
Didn’t mean to fade away…
All this time I thought I’d heal,
But I just rot a different way.
Now I’m talkin' to the sky,
Hopin’ God don’t block the call…
If there’s peace on the other side,
Hope you catch me when I fall.
[Repeat Final CHORUS – 3:40] [Fade vocal in last lines]
“Hope you catch me… when I fall…”
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[Outro – 4:00] [sample fades out]
[(Looped Sample):]
“One more chance…”
(Ad-lib whisper):
I ain't mean to…