Close Enough to Stay

You call me when the world is cold

Say you need someone to hold

I come running every time, no questions asked

But when I reach for you in light

You disappear into the night

Like I’m chasing something I can’t ever grasp

And I know I should be stronger

But I’ve held on for so long

You give just enough to wonder

If maybe I’m not wrong

You keep me close enough to stay

Far enough to break me

I give you all my love

But you don’t ever take it

You’re in and out like waves

And I’m drowning in the space

Between your silence and your name

But I love you, God, I love you

So I stay

I memorize the way you smile

Even if it lasts a while

It’s like a flicker I can’t turn into a flame

You hold me when you’re feeling low

Then let me go before I know

If what we had was real or just a game

And my friends say I should leave you

But they don’t feel what I feel

I keep hoping you’ll see me

The way I see you still

You keep me close enough to stay

Far enough to break me

I give you all my love

But you don’t ever take it

You’re in and out like waves

And I’m drowning in the space

Between your silence and your name

But I love you, God, I love you

So I stay

Maybe someday you’ll hold me

With the same fire I’ve shown

But maybe loving you

Means learning to let go

You keep me close enough to stay

Far enough to break me

I give you all my love

But you don’t ever take it

You’re in and out like waves

And I’m drowning in the space

Between your silence and your name

But I love you