Had it all

[Verse 1]
I had everything... I had it all
I didn't notice until it started to fall
No job, & no house
No kids and no spouse.
Fifteen years together you left unplanned,
Now I have nothing & noone left who understands
Everything is gone, including my heart
It's devastating, feels empty being apart
I worked so hard to get what I had
And in one day it was gone ... now I'm just sad.
[Chorus]
I know one day I might find some good,
In what I hoped for from childhood
Until now it's been hurt and pain
Trauma lingers & I'm blind to the gain
[Verse 2]
I wish I could restart from day one of life I'd stay alone and never be a wife
I'd save the little girl who died that day
Because of her brothers vulgar ways
His own trauma passed on to her
4 years old, noone believed what occurred
Now adulthood came, so did more
Abuse, trauma, knocked me to my core
I thought I found my one true support
Unfortunately instead he broke while he fought
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
So now, from my errors of not being aware
I have nothing to show from 37 years here
Everything is gone and the blame is mine....
So now I carry on and hope that one day
Eventually...I'll be fine. 
[Chorus]
[Outro]

Deep cut female mainstream rock pop ballard