Break in the Generations

Why can't you wait for me, especially when we have so much going all the possibilities you threw to the ground that s*** it shows me that the way I was looking at you the tint has been a little Rosy or was the tint the color of whiskey, because my families demons run through me

Now I'm standing in the wreckage of what we could've been  
Picking up the pieces while you're moving on again  
Maybe I inherited more than just their eyes  
These patterns keep repeating, wrapped in the same old lies

But I'm breaking every chain that held them down  
Barely touch the bottle, won't let it turn me around  
No dice rolling in my hands, no bets upon my soul  
I'm rewriting this story, taking back control

See my father's ghosts, they whisper in my ear  
"You'll end up just like us, drowning in your fear"  
But I got a little boy who's counting on me  
To be the man they never learned to be

I'm putting in the work, day after day  
Therapy sessions, learning how to pray  
Not to some distant god, but to the man I'm becoming  
While the voices of the past keep on humming

One day someone's gonna see the fight I've fought  
All the battles with myself that can't be bought  
Someone who'll care about the scars I bear  
Who'll understand the weight of what I carry there

Not just wanting me for what I can provide  
But loving me for how I've changed inside  
How I chose to heal instead of just survive  
How I'm keeping my son's hope alive

'Cause the curse stops here, it ends with me  
I'm the one who chose to finally be free  
And when that someone comes who truly sees  
They'll find a man who fought his family trees

Built himself a home where love can grow  
Where whiskey bottles don't steal the show  
Where children don't have to wonder if they're worth the stay  
'Cause daddy chose to fight demons every single day

Yeah, the tint was whiskey-colored for too long  
But I'm seeing clearly now, and I'm staying strong  
For my son, for myself, for the love that's yet to come  
The generational curse? Man, I'm the one who won.

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