Who The Hell Am I

Woke up, same room, strange face

Mirror lookin’ back like, “Change, wait”

Scrollin’ through a life that I half-made

Old pics, new pain, all cascade

Mama say I’m distant, I been offline

Still reply “I’m good” when I’m not fine

Friends think I’m solid, I just play tough

‘Cause I don’t know who I am and that’s messed up

Who the hell am I?

I don’t even know this mind

Every day a brand-new lie

I just put that mask on tight

Who the hell am I?

Echo in an empty sky

If I disappear tonight

Would anybody even mind? (would you mind?)

Name on my phone that I barely recognize

Old me, callin’ back from a better time

Dreams that I had, now they feel hand-me-down

Like a jacket that don’t fit, so I wear a frown

Try to pray but my thoughts just talk back

Try to run, but I drag this old past

People say, “Find yourself,” like it’s real fast

I been lookin’ in the dark, where the hurt at

Who the hell am I?

I don’t even know this mind

Every day a brand-new lie

I just put that mask on tight

Who the hell am I?

Echo in an empty sky

If I disappear tonight

Would anybody even mind? (tell me now)

Maybe I’m the break, not the breakthrough

Maybe I’m the scar, not the save-you

But I’m still here, breathin’ in the same room

Heart still hittin’ on the same boom

So if I’m lost, maybe that’s the first step

Map in the ash of the things that I regret

Name on the line and I’ll write it from scratch

Just me versus me in a head-on crash (yeah)

Who the hell am I?

I don’t even know this mind

Every day a brand-new lie

I just put that mask on tight

Who the hell am I?

Echo in an empty sky

If I’m still here by sunrise

Maybe that’s the start this time (this time)