[Intro][gangsta trap] Feeling betrayed By those supposed To keep me safe Those close to me leave & not stay When I need them Cos I'm strugglin When I'm bleedin I got nothin No partner no family nobody Comin, Noone tellin me I'll be ok To say everything's ok The shittiest place to be alone Is suicidal. & alone [Hook 1] Its no surprise How many people die From suicide Cos who comes help the one Who's the one to come When you need someone NO ONE [Verse] I dont wanna die & no matter how hard I try To regulate while my Body feels like a hostage in an evil & volatile space, Ive never seen Never been In this place Aware with so much pain Fucks with my brain In so many ways Im so scared of this maze thing Im going crazy Get me out Please someone help Im drowning in overwhelm An Ocean with 100 meter swell I know I'm unwell & I can't swim my Nervous system has hollowed out my insides So now Im just a shell 3 years ago I tried get help Asked people that already kinda meet What I need Their replies Were Empty (So) [Hook 1] [Verse] So you lay there With open wounds deep yet easy enough to repair If only a person that cared was there To help you In this Traumatic thing youre going through Cos your brain your heart your everything Hurts so fucken bad & wont stop bleeding But what you needs just out of reach Like a meter or 2 from you If you could you would At least try to Fix yourself cos its not often you need to Or have to rely & need them to reply Cos usually you manage to get by On your own thats why Its a shock when you phone or text to say " hey, Im not ok. I need help" Lifes piling up Too much I dont trust myself Or anyone else to meet my needs, actually help me So I dont just switch from my fight into my freeze Otherwise I just give up on me [Music] Gotta hope Someone comes who knows How to help me cope & stop the slope Toward that sharp thing or the rope Or pills to overdose Been 41 years of lows, so bad The highs last less than half that That's why Id rather die Not just survive Livin a life In fear Of another 41 years Alive Livin in fear I wish at times For a stroke Or cancer or in a permanent comatose Its fucked up where my mind goes But its how I show how much pain I live with & why I keep reaching out for help To 1, 2, 4 or 5 People I hope want me alive (But) [Hook 2] no surprise hours go by Its no wonder why Numbers are so high All the lives we lose to Suicide [Bridge] Why bother educating Waste our time & energy explaining Signs of the most likely to become A suicidal victim Cos Awareness is 1 part of 3 It needs to be paired with Checking in on anybody who mentions Constant stressful situations or depression & dont judge or question If they're just seeking attention Any threat of self harm Is enough of a sign, an alarm To go see them or call a professional Just dont do nothing at all [Hook 1] [Hook 2] [Outro] Ask people if theyre ok It could save somebody today Tomorrow follow up with hello It could matter more than you will ever know

Suicidal awareness..