Wonder

One day you will wonder why voice fell silent why my lips never pursue a kiss why my arms no longer reach out for a embrace it’s not that I fell out of love because my heart and my mind still loves you I see me embracing you I can feel your lips on mine I can imagine us cuddled in each others arms laughing and talking I still feel my heart it’s hurting so bad it screams in silence every day and every night it’s not that I fell out of love it’s a reaction to the way you pull away from hugs the wiping your moth after a kiss goodbye it’s when I try to talk it gets one lined and shut down so I don’t dare take the lead on a kiss cause rejection I’m sure I’ll get I have great conversations in my head about how your day was if you want anything what your palms are cause now I fear my voice is gone just need you to know I miss us the moment we lost us I lost my smile I lost my dry eyes it became so hard to breath my focus os lost the ability to focus on anything is gone just like my will a little understanding patience kind words a smile and not a scowl I feel completely alone no kids no man no job no secure home a roof I have and food to eat and a warm bed to sleep so for these things I am grateful but my glimpse my glimmer my unit is what I seek