Should've saved ME.

Woke up with the ceiling caving in again
Phone full of unread messages, all of 'em need a friend
Fridge empty, gas light blinkin’ on the dash
Still pickin’ up the pieces like I ain’t breakin’ fast

Every favor, I fold like a paper spine
Built a home in hell just so they’d feel fine
I gave my coat, caught frost in my chest
They took my warmth, left me with less

I ain't slept more than a minute in peace
My dreams scream louder than I ever could speak
Told 'em Its fine with a mouth full of Alot unsaid
Truth chokes quieter when you’re misunderstood



I should’ve saved me,
But I was too busy savin’ them
Dragged myself through the fire
Just to pull out hollow friends

I should’ve walked,
But my feet knew guilt too well
Now I’m stranded on a bridge
I built straight into hell

I should’ve saved me,
I should’ve saved me...


I’m the one who shows up when the world forgets
Even when I’m drowin', I don't ask for shit
They cry wolf, I come runnin' again
While I bleed behind smiles they’ll never defend

Bank account says I'm a joke to the system
But I’d still give my last to someone who missed 'em
Tired ain't the word, I’m past that point
Nothin' left but fumes and the echo of my voice

They say “you’re strong” like it’s some kinda praise
But I’m holdin’ on by threads most nights and days
If I broke, they’d just scroll right by
But if they break, I’m the first one to cry



(spoken/whispered delivery)

I never learned to say no...
Not when they needed yes.
Even if it buried me.
Even if I lost the rest.
I can’t hate my heart,
But damn... I wish it let me leave.


I should’ve saved me,
But I was too busy savin’ them
Dragged myself through the fire
Just to pull out hollow friends

I should’ve walked,
But my feet knew guilt too well
Now I’m stranded on a bridge
I built straight into hell

I should’ve saved me,
I should’ve saved me...



Too much on my plate,
Too little of me left
But I’ll still pour out what’s broken
If it means they can rest

I’m the ghost in their stories,
The company in their peace
But who’s gonna carry me
When I collapse beneath?

emo/pop-punk x dark alt-trap fusion