Should've saved ME.

Woke up with the ceiling caving in again

Phone full of unread messages, all of 'em need a friend

Fridge empty, gas light blinkin’ on the dash

Still pickin’ up the pieces like I ain’t breakin’ fast

Every favor, I fold like a paper spine

Built a home in hell just so they’d feel fine

I gave my coat, caught frost in my chest

They took my warmth, left me with less

I ain't slept more than a minute in peace

My dreams scream louder than I ever could speak

Told 'em Its fine with a mouth full of Alot unsaid

Truth chokes quieter when you’re misunderstood

I should’ve saved me,

But I was too busy savin’ them

Dragged myself through the fire

Just to pull out hollow friends

I should’ve walked,

But my feet knew guilt too well

Now I’m stranded on a bridge

I built straight into hell

I should’ve saved me,

I should’ve saved me...

I’m the one who shows up when the world forgets

Even when I’m drowin', I don't ask for shit

They cry wolf, I come runnin' again

While I bleed behind smiles they’ll never defend

Bank account says I'm a joke to the system

But I’d still give my last to someone who missed 'em

Tired ain't the word, I’m past that point

Nothin' left but fumes and the echo of my voice

They say “you’re strong” like it’s some kinda praise

But I’m holdin’ on by threads most nights and days

If I broke, they’d just scroll right by

But if they break, I’m the first one to cry

(spoken/whispered delivery)

I never learned to say no...

Not when they needed yes.

Even if it buried me.

Even if I lost the rest.

I can’t hate my heart,

But damn... I wish it let me leave.

I should’ve saved me,

But I was too busy savin’ them

Dragged myself through the fire

Just to pull out hollow friends

I should’ve walked,

But my feet knew guilt too well

Now I’m stranded on a bridge

I built straight into hell

I should’ve saved me,

I should’ve saved me...

Too much on my plate,

Too little of me left

But I’ll still pour out what’s broken

If it means they can rest

I’m the ghost in their stories,

The company in their peace

But who’s gonna carry me

When I collapse beneath?