I Keep the Knife in My Head

Intro (low, warped)
Don’t blink.
You’ll miss me unravel.

Verse 1
I don’t dream anymore, I relapse awake,
Every thought of you got teeth in my brain.
I pace like a crime scene, tape in my chest,
Heart beating crooked like it knows what’s next.
I tried to bury you under days and drinks,
But you float back up through the cracks when I blink.
I don’t want peace, I want pressure and noise,
I want the moment right before I’m destroyed.

Pre-Chorus
You’re not evil, you’re worse—you’re quiet,
You don’t touch me and that’s why I riot.
I keep my damage organized,
So I can bleed without looking alive.

Chorus
I keep the knife in my head, not my hand,
I carve you into every “I’m fine.”
I don’t chase you—I rot where I stand,
Watching time turn into your spine.
I don’t want love, I want the ache,
I want the hunger that never breaks.
You don’t see me—that’s the crime,
I keep the knife in my head all the time.

Verse 2
Your name tastes like rust in my mouth,
Say it too loud and the lights go out.
I replay you like a warning sign,
Ignore it every single time.
You laugh like nothing’s wrong at all,
While I measure my life in how hard I fall.
I don’t want you here, I don’t want you gone,
I want the spiral to drag me along.

Bridge (manic, half-spoken)
Say I’m sick—I know, I know.
I make a home in the afterglow.
I don’t heal, I shed my skin,
Just to feel you crawl back in.
You’re not mine, you never were,
Still I shake like a guilty nerve.

Chorus
I keep the knife in my head, not my hand,
I carve you into every “I’m fine.”
I don’t chase you—I rot where I stand,
Watching time turn into your spine.
I don’t want love, I want the ache,
I want the hunger that never breaks.
You don’t see me—that’s the crime,
I keep the knife in my head all the time.

Outro (cold, hollow)
They say obsession fades with time…
Mine learned how to survive.
If I ever look okay,
Know it’s just the damage behaving.

dark rap, dark love, emo, and funk, lust and obsession, NSFW, dark funk. Male voice broken and screaming scratchy