Finding my voice

It took me to lose you To find myself 
I know I will never forgive myself for this
And I don't have the words anymore
So please don't go I know all my regrets is on me
All the late nights crying seeing how beautiful you becoming 
With the blame hitting me hard late at night 
Everything's my fault just please don't go 
It took me to lose you to find myself 
All my songs started with that pain
But my heart is already destroyed 
And it's ok I'm not mad at you baby
I'm mad at myself for being a fool 
All this pain was needed for me to change 
I know all this on me not on anyone else 
And I already apologized a million times to you
So I know saying sorry won't do nothing 
As I will never forgive myself for losing you 
Seeing you become more perfect everyday 
As I become full of guilt 
Trying my best to move on But baby
You have a pull on me with how beautiful you are
I'm so sorry even when ik I apologize a million times already 
It took me to lose you to find myself 
All my songs won't be here if I didn't 
And I wish I didn't because all my songs sucks
I would rather have you then this voice in my heart 
I got after losing you
It took me to lose you to find myself 
Trying my best to move on 
But you have this pull on me
Baby I can't lie and say I don't miss you when we both know I do
It took me to lose you to find myself 
Finding this voice in me
I wish I never had became it became with a price 
I would have you then be famous baby
I know I can't fix it no matter what i do
But this guilt will never leave 
It took me to lose you to find myself 
Finding a voice I never wanted
As I will never forgive myself 
Still loving you at a distance knowing i can't fix it
As I'm so sorry I know this all my fault 
It took me to lose you to find myself 
I would've rather be loving you then be world fam baby
Because that how much you meant to me
Finding a voice in my heart I couldn't find myself 
It took me to lose you to find myself 
As I'm so sorry I know I can't fix this 
I just hope the next guy treats you better 
Then I ever could 
As I found I voice in myself I could of never had found myself 

studio, male