Ringmaster in My Mind

[Booming Ringmaster Announcer Voice - carnival background music]
Step right up, step inside
Big top in my skull tonight
Watch the clowns and demons fight
For the center ring of my mind
[Calm Narrator Voice – mid-tempo rap]
I wake up to the circus, ringmaster in my brain
One voice juggling my secrets, another breathing flame
One tightrope-walks my patience, one heckles every feat
I’m selling tickets at the gate to every fear I meet
I try to find the exits, but the tent just grows and grows
One clown ties balloon regrets, one demon steals the show
They sell popcorn made of memories, cotton candy made of shame
And I’m just here applauding like I haven’t gone insane
[Chorus Voice – dark melodic singing]
Oh, I’m not alone in here
Got a circus crowd that steers the wheel
Some say hate, some say cheer
Some just laugh and drink my fear
I keep the volume low, but they still find me
When I try to let go, they remind me
[Fast Demon Voice – intense fast rap]
Welcome to the main event, the freak show in your head
Where we dance around your sanity and tuck you into bed
We got clowns in broken mirrors, we got beasts you never tamed
Watch ‘em trample every hope you built, set fire to your name
We’re the voice that says you’re worthless, we’re the laugh behind the mask
We’re the ring of roaring judgment, we’re the questions you won’t ask
Better clap for your tormentors, better cheer for the collapse
‘Cause the circus never leaves you once you let it set its traps
[Calm Narrator Voice – spoken word]
I’m tired of the ticket lines
Tired of the painted grins
Tired of the encore
When the lights go dim
But you’re my longest-running show
My oldest cast of thieves
So take another bow
And bring me to my knees
[Call-and-Response Voices – one per line]
[Calm Narrator Voice – soft spoken]
One voice says, “You’re okay.”
[Fast Demon Voice – harsh rap]
You’re the freak, you’re the prey!
[Calm Narrator Voice – calm rap]
One says, “It’s just a phase.”
[Mocking Clown Voice – playful rap]
Wear the mask, join the parade! [Clowns Laughing]
[Calm Narrator Voice – soft spoken]
One says, “Take a breath.”
[Fast Demon Voice – distorted whisper]
Better choke on regret!
[Calm Narrator Voice – resigned whisper]
One says, “We can heal.”
[Multiple creepy Voices – booming theatrical]
But we own you still!
[Chorus Voice – dark melodic singing]
Oh, I’m not alone in here
Got a circus crowd that steers the wheel
Some say hate, some say cheer
Some just laugh and drink my fear
I keep the volume low, but they still find me
When I try to let go, they remind me
[Calm Narrator Voice – slow spoken word]
So tonight, I’ll pour a toast
To the ringmaster and the ghosts
May you hush when I’m dreaming
May you laugh when I’m close
You’re the circus in my head space 
The crowd I can’t outgrow
And even in the dark
You still steal the show
To the ringmaster and the ghosts
May you hush when I’m dreaming
May you laugh when I’m close
You’re the circus in my head space 
The crowd I can’t outgrow
And even in the dark
You still steal the show

Fast rap lyrics, hip hop melody, carnival under tones, Dark Melodic, multiple vocals, xall response, male, female