...and again

My life's all crazy
Tho I tried to stabilize 
It's all for nothing
If your partner doesn't realize
I cannot begin to give you me
If I'm not truly what you see
It's not a new problem 
It's kinda my fault
I cast an aura
And the reality haunts
Over and over
I've tried to show you
What's inside
But it blasts right thru u
I've flooded your life with all my art
And left every word I've written
Out in the open from the start
I've invited questions 
I have a perspective
I needed much knowledge
So i built a collective 
I needed to see 
And understand
But the urge clouded my vision
It got outta hand
I give what I am
In a manner so freely
You could look for another
But they'll never be Me
I always have wished
That just one would perceive
The depth and the gravity 
To be found deep within me
I know at the surface
It's frosty and still
But just beneath all that
A torrent does swirl
It has always been
Cares not for my perception
Another dimension
In exchange for perfection 
So I still hold out hope
Someday someone will see
The man that I truly am
And forever pick me. 

...it could happen.

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