LOOK HOW FAR I’VE COME

It’s mad looking back now…

I don’t even recognise that version of me

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I was waking up the same, every day felt identical

Eat, drink, shower, sit there feeling invisible

Mind just quiet but not in a peaceful way

More like empty, like I drifted and faded away

Three months straight living life on repeat

No direction, no drive, just stuck in defeat

Telling myself this is normal, it’s fine

But deep down I knew that wasn’t my life

I didn’t care, I was lost in my head

Thought I couldn’t move forward, stuck where I was left

Even convinced myself I couldn’t live without her

Now I look back thinking how did I allow that

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Look how far I’ve come, I once was lost

Stuck in a place I couldn’t get across

Now I move different, I know my worth

Still building myself, yeah I’m putting in work

Look how far I’ve come, I won’t go back

That old version of me ain’t built like that

Still not there but I’m closer now

And that’s something I’m proud about

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It weren’t even me that made the shift at first

Mum had to step in, had to make it work

Gave me that push when I needed direction

Now I turned that into my own progression

Started moving better, gym, health, routine

Small changes building into something I can be

Still not perfect, still far from complete

But I’m not that version that I used to be

I had moments where I slipped in mindset

Not fully gone but I ain’t stayed there yet

And that’s the difference, I don’t stay stuck

I adjust, reset, then I build back up

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No more chasing, no more losing me

No more living like I’m useless, see

I stay calm, I don’t react the same

That old version don’t remain

I don’t fold, I don’t move like that

I don’t fall back into old habits

Every step now got purpose in it

I’m building something, I’m working with it

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Look how far I’ve come, I once was lost

Stuck in a place I couldn’t get across

Now I move different, I know my worth

Still building myself, yeah I’m putting in work

Look how far I’ve come, I won’t go back

That old version of me ain’t built like that

Still not there but I’m closer now

And that’s something I’m proud about

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(soft)

I still doubt sometimes…

But I don’t stay there

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I’m not finished…

But I’m not who I was either…