[Intro] Yeah… 404 Leon I was just a kid… [Verse 1] I was just a kid with my back to the wall House full of people, still felt so small Learned how to cry without making a sound Learned real fast no one’s coming around Toys on the floor, but my heart was broke Wrote all my pain in invisible notes Every “be strong” felt like “don’t be you” So I swallowed my tears just to make it through I remember nights I was praying to sleep Asking God why love feels so damn weak Why I felt empty before I felt grown Why “home” always felt like I’m here alone They don’t see scars when they’re buried inside So I smiled wide just to stay alive [Chorus] I don’t wanna feel that pain anymore Still hear my name from that bedroom floor Growing up alone, yeah, it messed me up I learned how to hurt before I learned trust I don’t wanna feel that pain anymore Carried that weight way too long, too sore If I let it go, will it leave me be? Or is that lonely kid still stuck in me? [Verse 2] I grew older, but the fear stayed close Every goodbye feels like déjà-ghosts I overlove ‘cause I’m scared they’ll leave I overthink everything they mean If you raise your voice, I shut right down ‘Cause silence was louder than any sound I don’t hate my past, I hate what it taught That love disappears, that I’m easily lost That I gotta bleed just to feel something real That my pain’s the only thing I can feel I was building walls just to stay safe Now I’m trapped inside ‘em, losing my faith [Chorus] I don’t wanna feel that pain anymore Still hear my name from that bedroom floor Growing up alone, yeah, it messed me up I learned how to hurt before I learned trust I don’t wanna feel that pain anymore I’ve been strong for too long, now I’m worn If I let it go, will it finally fade? Or am I stuck being shaped by the pain? [Bridge] (half-time, stripped beat) Tell that kid it wasn’t his fault He didn’t deserve being left so cold He was brave just staying alive In a world that forgot him every night [Outro] I’m still healing, but I’m learning to breathe I’m more than the scars they left on me If I’m still standing, maybe that’s proof I survived the dark, now I’m telling the truth Yeah… 404 Leon Still growing up alone… but not giving up.

Growing Up Alone