listen, I gotta tell you this Cos its blowing my mind How playing it in rewind Unmasks my subconsciousness Without realizing I went to go do the things I always do with you & the freakish part - i thought i was empathizing You scream & call me vicious But my moves only prove its me or you acting smooth but actually malicious The last of the dishes Throw them at me hard broken glass broken plate Im irate You fucken hate Its too late now fucked up this shit wow the hot is heated & Im depleted I wanna sleep & go deep into the depths of what hell is depicted No coming back Its the fucking blackness of the impact Scream Are you alive you never know cos noones listen bro let it go & close your eyes be blind unwind into nothing below poof.. gone bye bye old man till next time we can But in my mind I caught the flip side take responsibility for me no one else can take the good I made so Ill step up fully take the hit for being that shitty unhealthy version of me & try to keep going, keep filling my own head with positive emotion leave that door wide open keep hopin Ill fukm do it just watch cos these words ive spoken my token slogan from being broken to being awoken a new vocabulary its nothing like how I speak regularly particularly since I grew up in a white Christian family its my polarity familiarity irregularity & honestly. if you can figure out how to see it for what it is life isnt that bad its just full of balance thats the challenge be present learn from the past thats how you see if you grew in that same fucking shit that keeps happening.. its true. if you want different outcome different moves is what you gotta do yea you. noone else can do it for you change the past habits of your past by finding someone who can teach you listen learn say sorry if you fail trust me you will a lot but dont bail cos effort for change is way easier than constant weight on your back that keeps getting heavier from hurting more people you love & letting them down making new friends then have to leave town over & over around & around surviving is not living my life with my kids was my dream when I was younger all I wanted was my own team now I have it but I keep fucking it up it seems i want to keep it & teach my kids what this life could be not what theyve seen in the darkness of fears played out in between me & their dad angry & yelling screaming they grow up thinking what the fuck is the point if its a life of constant sinking fighting to survive in a dark world is not a meaning to want to carry on keep believing. so show them different but first to the work so they dont have to go through as much hurt as you have had to endure thats how you make up for all the shittiness from before set them up with the tools they need to navigate through life & succeed to accept life will be fucking hard make sure they understand that cos this is the important part.. that without all that shit all of lifes crappyness without it we'd have no idea how it'd look in happiness

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